Don’t Give Up!

Don’t Give Up!

Crazy Summer Curveball

 

Writing this I feel like I am trudging through mud but I keep hearing in my head “Don’t give up!”. This lovely blog that I worked so hard at and enjoyed designing has been untended for six whole months. Just when I felt like I was getting going, the curveball of us having to move house happened. What I couldn’t have predicted was that we would struggle to find a house for six weeks and end up living in temporary accommodation for the summer. Moving house is stressful enough as it is! Having your family’s possessions stored in 5 different places across the county is very challenging, to say the least. We had to leave the temporary home twice as it was booked by others and there were times when we had two vehicles full to bursting with stuff (time to downsize perhaps?) as we spent the night in a family hotel room. I am eternally grateful that we were able to find a roof over our heads on those nights. We are the lucky ones. I have always had a great concern for the issues of homelessness but now I have a more acute vision of what that could feel like.

So I am not going to rant on about letting agents fees and requirements and the lack of affordable housing but instead just take a few moments to write about resilience. When we knew we had to move we made a family vision board. Amazingly, the house we had imagined appeared for viewing within a few days. We loved it but then all sorts of financial and practical issues got in the way which meant that we viewed many other houses (some of which were barely fit for habitation yet still at extortionate rents!). Time marched on through the summer weeks as the boys and I tried to make the best of a very strange summer holiday. The start of term at my eldest son’s new school was getting uncomfortably close. Of course, we wanted to be settled before then and so the temptation to take a house in a location and condition we weren’t happy with was strong. The tension was mounting and the September weather was moving in.

Don’t give up!

 

We didn’t give up. It was nail-biting and my poor husband had his head in his hands a few times. The kids had to start school and then we managed to pull it all together (only with the help of friends and family mind you..thank you dear ones) and we moved into our lovely home. The very same house we saw first at the beginning of the summer. It was meant for us!
The only way I got through this was by meditating daily and putting my trust in the divine that all would be well for us. I feel that my positive attitude brought our home to us.

What about my blog?

So this situation engulfed the whole summer. Consequently, there was an inevitable break in the blogging as I didn’t have access to a computer. Then we were settling into our new home and Christmas was upon us. So there has also been some procrastination and some doubt as I had lost momentum. My blog readership is still minuscule and that can be disheartening.
So I did feel like giving up on it. I have been spending time “arting” and making a new website for my healing work. (Check it out here guys Holistic Sound)  I have read articles about neglected blogs that were not terribly encouraging and made me feel like a failure as they talk about lack of posting as if it is a death sentence.
 

Well, I am back.

I have realised that I am not about to give up on the blog. I didn’t give up on the house. There is a lot of valuable information on this blog and lots more to come. I am going to be focusing more on the creative aspects of healing from Chronic Illness as that is what gives me the most joy. There may not be a post every single week as I am myself navigating the ups and downs of family life, and that is ok, in fact, it is good enough! There is no commandment saying how often thou must blog!

Resilience

Resilience is adapting to adversity. Toddlers show resilience when they try to walk for the 27th time after 26 falls and resilience is what I need to tap into now to rescue my blog. It can be applied to Chronic Illness also. Sometimes it can feel like you are just moving from one symptom to another and the pain, discomfort and fatigue compound with interest. Trying to keep a positive attitude despite it all (whilst of course, making time and space for feeling and processing your negative emotions) helps you bounce back and wake up in the morning with a renewed sense of hope. There are solutions… and support… and miracles…
 
I always was a bit stubborn 😃

Music as Medicine can Help you Feel Well

Music as Medicine can Help you Feel Well

Music is magnificent. Music as medicine is free of all unpleasant side-effects! It can sooth, relax, enliven, energise and move us to dance. It evokes memories, provides an atmosphere, enhances a celebration, sends a message and facilitates the expression of our emotions. Music can help us journey to other worlds, create imagery, bring people together, and even shift energy blockages.

Music as medicine
I often take music for granted but it is something I am actually truly grateful for. Playing instruments was a big part of my childhood and teenage years.
I can remember practising for music exams an hour each day and finding it so calming and meditative. That was before I even knew what meditation was! I am sad I haven’t carried that on into adulthood, although there is still time to get back on that horse, even though it doesn’t feel like it!
There was a time in my 20s when I realised that I wasn’t at ease unless there was some background noise, such as the radio or television. I was aware that this was not healthy to be uncomfortable with silence, so I made a conscious effort to switch everything off and I grew to really love silence. In the years that followed, I was training in sound therapy and was very focused on sound but still did not listen to any music at home anymore. It didn’t hold any interest for me anymore strangely and I seemed to be more attuned to pure frequencies, so would enjoy toning, drumming and playing my singing bowls at home but again was mostly in silence.
Then one day we had to pick a few pieces of music to listen to as homework for the course. We had to lie down with closed eyes and really listen to the tracks with every part of our being. It was a very moving experience and I had profound emotions, sensations and memories arising whilst listening. It reminded me of the power that music holds and I have brought it back into my life again at times when it feels right. However, mostly I have to admit I am still quite hooked on the silence when I am at home. Maybe it is a response to a noisy family life!

As a trained sound therapist I have experienced the power of sound to heal first hand and witnessed my clients having breakthroughs physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. In 2013 Lyz Cooper of BAST (British Academy of Sound Therapy) teamed up with Marconi Union to produce a piece of music. The intention was to make the track as relaxing as possible. The scientific research done on the track afterwards showed that it was the most relaxing piece of music they had found. Amazing! The track was embedded with healing frequencies and rhythms that sound therapists use regularly. It was interesting to me that even played through digital music players, the effects of the sacred sound frequencies still had the power to relax the listener very significantly.

 

Here is the full length 31 minute extended version of the track if you would like to kick back and have a listen.

Prepare to be very very relaxed!!

 

 

This year Lyz Cooper produced another track with duo Silence & Air to help people enjoy a restful sleep. I was part of the research study group and I have to say that when I listened to it before bed it definitely helped get to sleep quickly and have a deep restful sleep. The results of the research on this track were also highly significant. You can learn more about the study here and listen to the track for yourself. For more information about ways in which to enjoy restful sleep, have a look at my post on 8 easy ways to get more rest.
Music as mecicine

Examples of music as medicine:

I have a wonderful friend who has sadly experienced ME/CFS and PTSD amongst other physical imbalances of many years. She decided in the last year to take up her practice of piano playing again after having not played for many years. Therapy, acupuncture and hypnotherapy led her to this point of being able to clear the blocks that were stopping her from playing. Her experience has been that the playing of music has incredibly healing for her.
She has shared that it helped her unlock her heart blockages and release fear and trauma. It helped her express her emotions non-verbally and stimulated her creativity when she was improvising. She also finds the regularity and stability of practising pieces and scales very balancing and comforting. I wonder if she has benefited from the right/left brain balancing that is inherent in playing with both hands as she says that she finds it easier to focus and her brain fog has lessened. She has also built up some strength in her hands and wrists which previously caused her a lot of pain. It has brought her a purpose for living again when confined to indoors with ME so much of the time. Of course, the music that arises also brings her joy, as it did me when I heard her playing her beautiful pieces.
“Sound is the force of creation, the true whole. Music then, becomes the voice of the great cosmic oneness and therefore the optimal way to reach this final state of healing.”
Hazrat Inayat Khan (1882-1927)
 
Music as mecicine
I know of another young man who used his music to survive his schizophrenia. It helped him push the voices away and soothed his troubled mind at a time when his medication was not working well. For him, music was essential to help him navigate his illness.
My husband Anthony has always played the guitar and spent many happy years busking on his travels. Since we have been together I have always noticed that when he is feeling down, he will pick up his guitar and play and sing and it soothes and uplifts him. I think that the guitar is especially healing in this way as the vibrations emanate directly from the body of the guitar which is resting on the player’s abdomen.
Music as mecicine

My vision of music as medicine in the future:

The future of medicine could be the application of sound frequencies to clear blockages and restore healthy energy. Imagine a device installed in your home that would scan your bodies energy and then emit the frequencies you needed to rebalance yourself embedded in a piece of relaxing music that would be played throughout your home. How cool would that be?!
“Eventually, musical therapists will compose prescriptions after the manner of a pharmacist…”
Dr. Ira Altschuler (of the Eloise State Hospital) (1942)

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How to keep that holiday feeling!

How to keep that holiday feeling!

I just had the pleasure of a holiday in Gran Canaria with my family. We were given the opportunity to stay in a five-star hotel by an incredibly generous friend and it was wonderful. (Thank you, dear friend).  Of course, there were the usual family holiday calamities, one son with a 24hr fever and sickness, another son with a sprained ankle and my husband giving himself a whiplash injury and misaligned vertebrae after being dared to ride the “Take-off” waterslide at the waterpark on our last day. Needless to say, he took off. Then he landed. He was in a lot of pain for over a week, bless him. Amazingly, for once, I was the one that stayed well and injury-free. It might have something to do with the fact that I barely left my sun lounger but hey, I was practising relaxing! Now that I am back home, I am practising hanging on to that lovely holiday feeling and it is challenging!
holiday feeling
So we had a lovely time (mostly) and had begun to sink into a more relaxed way of being after 10 days. It can take a while to slow down from the crazy pace of modern life but we were enjoying that process. Lots of sunbathing, swimming and a few glasses of Rosé definitely helped! Also, the little health setbacks meant that we couldn’t do many day trips and so were forced to just spend more time around the pool, and reading on the balcony which was no hardship!
 “Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer’s day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.”           John Lubboc 
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Time to go home!

Here is how to know your holiday is over!

1) Mess up by only downloading 1 boarding card onto your phone the night before leaving.
2) Have the lady at the check-in desk (of a well-known budget Irish airline) insist on you removing 3 kg from your case despite the flight being less than half full. (How I love to open my case full of laundry and medicines for all the queue to see at 5.30am.)
3) Have the lady at the check-in desk put one case through but not the other as only one boarding pass on your phone.
4) Make sure your phone starts to get buggy and malfunction, and the airport wifi is chronically intermittent.
6) Start to panic as time is marching on.
7) Watch helplessly as three guys with surfboards to check-in are next in line.
8) Watch more time tick past as you frustratingly try to download the airline app the lady is insisting on you having.
9) Start feeling like crying as your children watch you getting more stressed and panicky.
10) Finally get to the front of the queue again to be told the gate is closing despite the fact you have been stood there for an hour trying to sort it out.
11) Scoot over to the main desk with teary wide-eyed children to plead with the irritated flight manager. Cue angry phone conversation in Spanish.
12) Run back to the check-in desk to finally receive boarding cards and sprint to the gate, as best you can with injured family members and stiff joints.
13) Breathlessly explain to the non-plussed, chilled and smiley gate attendant your 60-second version of events, to be told that the gate is still open and not to worry!! Grr!
14) Spend the first 60 mins of your flight deep breathing to normalise your adrenaline levels and calm the hell down.
15) Land back home with the sketchiest bumpiest touchdown ever!
16) Travel on 4 separate trains to get back home with kids, footballs and multiple bags in tow.
17) Send your husband off to the chiropractor and sit down with a cup of tea to open your mail.
18) Open the first letter to find out that you have been given 2 months notice to move out of your house …

Welcome Home!

Was it worth it?
Of course!
(After all, it wasn’t quite as stressful as the time we went to Portugal and our eldest son developed concussion two hours before we were due to leave for our return flight. Cue an ambulance ride, lots of explanations in bad Spanish from us, a crazy rushed drive to the airport, followed by us hurriedly cleaning vomit from the hire car at the last minute! But hey that’s a whole other story!)
holiday feeling

How to keep that holiday feeling!

So, I have decided to do the following to keep my holiday feeling going (despite everything!):

  • Get outside in the sun as often as possible, but also whatever the weather.
  • Be in nature, forests and by the sea often.
  • Eat outside when possible and make new exotic recipes.
  • Go swimming as often as possible. (We have a new Lido that has opened up near us that we can go and check out.)
  • Make Mocktails so that you are having fun drinks, but without the excess alcohol.
  • Stay away from too much telly and devices.
  • Keep reading more as it is very relaxing, enjoyable and creatively stimulating.
  • Go on some day trips to new places.
  • Get some of your best holiday photos printed and in frames so that you can enjoy the memories.
  • Do things each day that make you happy!

 

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What I Learnt this Week about my Personality Type

What I Learnt this Week about my Personality Type

So what kind of personality do you have?

 

In my last post (How well do you know your own personality?), I wrote about how I had fun with the online 16personalities test last year. Not only was it entertaining but it also helped me feel validated and encouraged as it was so accurate in its’ assessment. Today I want to elaborate on why it was really helpful and interesting to me when I retook the test this week (6 months after the first one).

What I learnt last year about my personality type:

 As a Mediator:
  • We seek harmony
  • We are flexible, open-minded and passionate.
  • Mediators are dedicated and hard-working.
  • Mediators are hopelessly romantic, poetic and kind-hearted.
  • Beware of withdrawing into hermit mode. (I definitely have a tendency to do that and stop contacting friends.)
  • Gift for languages. (Maybe I need to take up a language again, I certainly loved languages at school.)
  • Difficult to get to know. (It takes me ages to bond with people on the whole, apart from a special few who must be soul mates because as soon as I met them I felt like I had known them forever.)
personality type

Under the career section for my personality type it said this:

“It is perhaps more challenging for INFPs to find a satisfying career than any other type. Though intelligent, the regimented learning style of most schools makes long years earning an advanced degree a formidable undertaking for people with the INFP personality type – at the same time, that’s often what’s needed to advance in a field that rings true for them. INFPs often wish that they could just be, doing what they love without the stress and rigour of professional life.”
This rings so true for me, as I found professional life very stressful and overwhelming. It goes on to say that writing, if not a novel, then blogging is perfect for my personality type as well as service careers such as working as a holistic therapist.

Yay, I seem to be heading in the right direction..at last!

 

 

Personality Type

Here is the interesting bit:

Comparing results

When I took this test 6 months ago I wrote down the results and then pretty much forgot about it. When I came across the results again whilst looking through my old Bullet journal I thought I would write this post but also take the test again to see if the results were repeatable.
I like to be critical of data and stay grounded in science despite my more mystical side, and so I was curious about whether the results would be the same. I am aware that we change energetically from moment to moment and also that our moods might affect how we answer the questions.
In fact, I got very similar results to last time but came out as more introverted (74% – this feels more accurate). The other results were very much similar to before but one variable had changed by 3%. This meant that I now was 55% Judging ( I had been 49% before) and interestingly this made me now a INFJ-T.

That small change had made me a different personality type!

I am now an Advocate!

Now, I hear you cry, that it is all a load of rubbish as I got a different result the second time. The way I see it is that the change from INFP-T to a INFJ-T is a subtle one. Only one variable has changed and only by a few percent, but that has been enough to put me in a different category.
Advocates only make up 1% of the population. It is interesting as the personality type is very similar to the mediator but is more decisive and organised. Over the last 6 months, I have been focused very much on getting more organised and planning with my bullet journal system both for my blog and my personal life. So it is fascinating to me that this effort on my part has produced a shift in my results. 

 personality type

Neuroplasticity

Scientists tell us about plasticity in the brain. Neuroplasticity is where experiences, behaviour and neural changes can reorganise new circuits in the brain. I find this an exciting prospect. This means we have some control over who we are and how we function and cope with life.
Barbara Arrowsmith is an amazing example of what brain training can achieve. Since her childhood, she suffered from several severe mental disabilities. She did not allow that to stop her. She had an inspiring inventor father who told her that if there was no solution yet for a problem, then you had to find it yourself. She invented her own method to rewire her brain and make the healthy parts of her brain perform the functionality that the damaged ones could not do. Her inspiring TED talk is here if you would like to hear more about her journey and neuroplasticity.

 

All in all, I don’t mind whether I am categorised as a Mediator or and Advocate as they both ring true for me. However, as I have essentially ended up being an Advocate for people with Rheumatoid Disease, then that is perhaps what I have become! Also, advocates are apparently suited to writing and also art and music.

So I am still on the right lines ..yay again!   

 

Personality type

 

So, in the context of mental health, I am thinking that this 16personalities test could be very helpful for people with mild mental health issues. (Of course, if you have a more serious mental health condition this is probably not going to be right for you, and it is advisable to see a professional for help.)

For example, if you are experiencing slight anxiety or depression, then perhaps by knowing your personality type you may be able to make adjustments to your lifestyle, work or social life that could be more beneficial to you.

Also, an understanding of your personality weak and strong points may help by giving an insight into how you deal with life and provide you with some tools and pointers to help along the way. Encouraging your nearest and dearest to also take the test could help you to relate and understand one another better.

Sometimes other people’s behaviour can be baffling and seem insensitive, but if we can see that they are actually running on a different operating system, (their personality type), then perhaps we can be more accepting of their behaviour and differences.

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How Well do you Know your Own Personality?

How Well do you Know your Own Personality?

As we approach Mental Health Awareness week next month, I am keen to focus in on this topic for the next few weeks posts. It seems to affect so many people.
Every week 1 in 6 of us experiences mental health problems.
The tagline this year is “Surviving or Thriving?” and this seems very pertinent to those of us dealing with Chronic Illness and our families also.

Personality test

Last year I came across this personality test and had a go. It only takes 10 minutes. It’s so interesting and a lot of fun. My assessment was really spot-on. I really encourage you to have a try.
However, I am not overly keen on placing labels on people and I think it’s important to remember that we are also influenced by our environment and experience. Let us not be limited by these assessments. This personality test is based on  Five Factor Personality Traits (Mind, Energy, Nature, Tactics, and Identity) and a combination of a Jungian model and a Myers-Briggs test.
My personality type came out as an  INFP-T or a MEDIATOR.
MIND: 59% Introverted ( vs Extroverted)
ENERGY: 61% Intuitive (vs Observant)
NATURE: 75% Feeling (vs Thinking)
TACTICS: 51% Prospecting (vs Judging)
IDENTITY: 74% Turbulent (vs Assertive)
This type of person is described as:
  • a true idealist, always looking for good in people
  • often may be perceived as calm, reserved or shy.
  • have an inner flame that can really shine (Oh yes I like this one!)
  • can be easily misunderstood.
  • diplomats and tend to be guided by principles rather than logic, excitement or practicality.
  • having strong personal values.
  • creative and seek order and peace.

Mind

The first scale in the test, Mind, measures how we interact with our surroundings. Introverts prefer solitary activities and tend to be sensitive and extroverts prefer group situations and are energised by interaction. Introverts tend to avoid excessive stimulation and extroverts seek it out.
I wasn’t surprised to find that I was 59% introverted. I am very shy at times but I also have a social side that likes to come out to play. I find it much easier in a one-to-one situation or a small group rather than a larger group.
It is a normal characteristic of humans to take some time to get used to a new stimulus (new people, new situation) before we begin to explore the unfamiliar. The new stimulus may be something dangerous or important. Apparently, shy individuals do not accommodate to new situations easily because they sense danger where it does not exist. Their nervous system is on high alert when it doesn’t need to be. That makes sense to me and having realised that a lot of my issues over the years have come from an underlying core belief of not being safe in the world, it is all falling into place.
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Energy

The second scale in the test measures Energy and determines how you see the world and what kind of information you focus on. Being intuitive means being more visionary and focused on ideas, whereas the observant is more interested in facts and observable data. I wasn’t surprised that I was 61% Intuitive as that is how I work artistically and I value intuition in life,  although I do find it hard to access at times.

Nature

The third scale measures Nature and determines how we make decisions and cope with emotions. This is very interesting for me as I place great significance on how we identify and process our emotions in regard to health. People who have a thinking personality trait rather than the feeling one, are thinking with their head more than their heart. They may use logic to override their emotions and tend to hide their feelings. I tested as 75% Feeling which is a considerable amount, but again it doesn’t surprise me as I have known I was empathic for many years and am well acquainted with its’ benefits and dangers. Feeling types are sensitive, empathic and emotionally expressive. They still use logic and have strong beliefs but tend to consider everyone’s feelings in a decision.
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Tactics

The Tactics scale focuses on our approach to work, planning and decision-making. Judging individuals are decisive and highly organised. They prefer structure and predictability. Prospecting individuals are good at improvising and tend to be flexible and nonconformist. I came up as almost 50:50 in this one which also feels accurate to me, as I like planning and spontaneity. I like to keep my options open with some things and at other times to have thought through all possibilities.

Identity

In the last part of the test a final scale measures Identity, showing how confident you are in your abilities and decisions. You are placed on a scale from assertive to turbulent.
Assertives are self-confident, self-assured and resistant to stress. Turbulents, on the other hand, are self-conscious and sensitive to stress. They experience a wide range of emotions and tend to be success-driven, perfectionistic and eager to improve.
While the Assertive variable may seem more positive, there is a positive side to the Turbulent in that they may be more driven to succeed. Being called Turbulent is not something I ever expected as I am pretty unflappable and only my children seem to drive me to lose my temper (as only children can!). I understand now that they are using the word turbulent to mean something different.

“Constant Improvers” (Introverted with Turbulence)

Constant Improvers are apparently sensitive and contemplative individuals who enjoy having their own space and freedom. The website goes on to say that Constant Improvers have a strong drive, but it comes paired with a strong fear of failure. They invest a great deal of their identity in their successes, and even a minor misstep or embarrassment can be crushing. This is so totally me, always striving, terrified of messing up and secretly very ambitious.
The term Constant Improver reminds me of my school reports: Aoife could do better. It also makes me think of an unending hamster wheel so I am going to try to concentrate on patting myself on the back for the things I do achieve and try not to berate myself for my mistakes.

 

All in all, I learnt an enormous amount about myself in this test. A lot of it I was already aware of, but to have it confirmed and recognised was very helpful for me. I could read about my strengths and weaknesses, some of which were not so obvious to me but I can see that they are true.

I was also able to read about career paths that suit me and about how I tend to operate in a workplace and as a parent. I am going to elaborate on the reason why I found this test really useful and interesting in my next post.

In the meantime, I encourage you to give it a try and find out which one of the 16 personality types you are. I feel that becoming more aware of our psychological profile could help us play to our strengths and bring awareness to our weaknesses.

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Have your Yearly Goals Gone by the Wayside?

Have your Yearly Goals Gone by the Wayside?

So it is April. That means it is the second quarter of the year guys!  How the heck did that happen. I mean January and February went fast, but March was a speeding arrow of a month that I didn’t quite grasp hold of until it was almost over. 

 

In our little family of four, we have birthdays in each of the first four months of the year. That means we seem to just go from one birthday celebration to the next in the first quarter of the year. Mind you, it must be worse for our extended family trying to remember it all!

 

In the last few weeks, I have had a bit of a slump. I have fallen off all my practices, including my Bullet Journaling (which helps to keep me on track). Bullet Journaling is the one thing that helps to keep me on track with what I am supposed to be doing! This feels disheartening, but I am remembering that I am human, and a human with incapacitating fatigue for that matter. So I am trying to be kind to myself and accept what is happening.

 

Goals
At the start of 2017, I spent quite a lot of time reviewing the previous year. I set lots of intentions and made goals in all areas of my life for the coming year. I have done this enthusiastically in previous years also.
One year, quite a while ago, I even came up with 200 separate goals that I wanted to achieve! Quite soon afterwards this seemed completely ridiculous. I was laughing at myself, along with some of my friends who were also laughing at me! In addition to this blind ambition (my Capricorn traits showing!), I hadn’t really formulated any plan of action that would get these things done.
Needless to say, the number of items on my list that I achieved that year were not quite into double figures. Interestingly though, on reflection, the ones I did manage were the ones that were the most important to me. I might not have picked those ones out consciously at the time but looking back on it I can see now that those were the ones that really mattered. I had completed the ones that spoke to my heart and not my head.
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So in recent years I have been more restrained and focused in my goal setting. Also, I am resonating with the notion of setting intentions but allowing for change and surrendering to the bigger picture of how those intentions will play out. It is interesting… and challenging.

 

Intentions aren’t much without action. Action can be so rewarding when you are in the flow. It can also be like banging your head against a brick wall at times when nothing seems to go as planned. I have wondered whether that means I am trying to go in the wrong direction. I have also wondered whether that just means I need to keep trying and persevering, like those inventors who only succeed on the 99th attempt.

Looking back on my goals for the first quarter of 2017, I have only managed four (and a half!) out of fourteen. That is a 30% success rate! Or a 70% failure rate on a bad day! However, I gave a talk to a group of 15 people, overcoming my severe fear of public speaking (to a degree), I saw more of my family (very happy about that!), and I painted 6 paintings (3 more than intended).
I might not have grown my blog to 1000 subscribers (nowhere near!), I didn’t swim weekly or do yoga, in fact, I have never been so inactive physically. My fatigue has been really incapacitating, so I have to forgive myself and move on. I have got a new supplement that will hopefully help.
Spring has sprung now, so hopefully, things will look up. I will get moving as I know this stagnation is a bit of a vicious circle. Too much sitting at the computer trying to work out how to make my blog successful I think! And I guess that is my point.
Perhaps what we most wish for, whether it is a new car, a promotion or a new house, is not actually what is best for us or what we need. In the chronic illness paradigm, we struggle with a seemingly unending list of unexpected and predictable variables that can upend the best of intentions. Acceptance and surrender are the keys here.
Goals
“We should not be discouraged at our own lapses … but continue. If we are discouraged, it shows vanity and pride. Trusting too much to ourselves. It takes a lifetime of endurance, of patience, of learning through mistakes. We all are on the way.”
Dorothy Day

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